Bye Bye Focus

I’m irritated.  I was in the zone, focused on my writing, when out of nowhere my blood sugar dropped.  That sweet focus is gone and I had to get up and deal with it by finding something in the kitchen to take care of it.  It’s not fair.  I cussed at it, knowing that wouldn’t make it go away.  This wasn’t a break I wanted.  The diabetes likes to show up and remind me it can do this.  It can ruin my focus and piss me off.

It’s not like focus is easy for me in the first place.  Like most people, I feel overwhelmed at times by all the information coming at me online.  But when blood sugar takes me on a wild rollercoaster ride, focus is the first thing to go.  What shows up in its place—and sticks around much too long—is anger and resentment.

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2 comments on “Bye Bye Focus
  1. These days, we have to be Superhuman to stay focused. IMHO

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I was a Type I from the age of 12 until I had a pancreas transplant when I was 33. It came with a new kidney. Diabetes took a toll on me. Being diagnosed at that age, I wasn’t always a model patient. It caused me to have kidney failure, lose part of my vision and parts of my feet are numb.
I loved being a “former diabetic” after the transplant. Or is the proper term “ex-diabetic”? It doesn’t matter. I felt the way a parolee from prison must feel. No more shots. No more blood tests. No more diet. No more strict sschedules. Well, I had to start taking anti-rejection meds—lots of ‘em—twice a day. Compared to the life I lived before, that was nothing.

After 14 years the pancreas stopped working, which means I'm back to being a Type 1 diabetic. This blog is about what it's like to go back to that world.

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